Stealing a Sunday Meme on Monday… Or is it Tuesday now…

I stole this from fellow blogger, Adventures of a Misplaced Texan Zombie Girl and I’m procrastinating!

1. How far away is the last person you kissed? miles and miles `;~)

2. Has someone ever told you they would be with you forever? Fortunately, they lied!

3. Last person you were in a car with? M

4. Any plans for tomorrow? laundry, I hope

5. How long does it take for you to take a shower? until I’m cold

6. Best friend or close friends? friends are friends

7. Is tomorrow going to be a good day? I’m alive, it’s good

8. Did you kiss anyone friday? Does Lucy, my cat count?

9. Ever thrown up in public? not since Germany when I was 16…

10. What’s on your mind RIGHT NOW? Deciding on what to bake…

11. Who was the last person you talked to? M2

12. What is the WORST subject they teach at school? History, it’s written by the victors

13. Have you seen anyone lately that you don’t get along with? If I can’t get along, then I go ashort…

14. What is your favourite colour top to wear? Opaque

15. Have you ever been in a car accident? Yes

16. What’s the closest thing to you that’s green? sharpie

17. Where would you like to be right now? The Mountains

18. Write down some lyrics to the song you’re listening to? there are no lyrics in the silent music of my head

19. How many dogs do you have? 0

20. Is anything bugging you right now? the need to pee 😦

21. Is life going right for you now? well, it can’t go left…

22. Is there someone you care about more than yourself? my kids

23. What made you laugh today? pervy comments of course

24. What was the last movie you watched? Windtalker

25. Whats the last conversation you had about? see #23

26. What were you doing at 7:00 this morning? still dreaming

27. Do you like your hair long or short? short

28. Do you want to see somebody right now? only if it were the right somebody

29. Do you like the rain? Yes, but not cold and nasty like it is now.

30. Did you have a valentine this year? myself! YAY!

31. The last person you kissed needs you at 3 am, would you go? they can bite me…

32. Would you honestly say you’d risk your life for someone else? Yes, for my kids

33. Honestly, if you could go back 1 month and change something would you? nope, don’t believe in that

34. How do you feel about boys smoking? and?

35. Could you see yourself with someone forever? only myself and my kids

Illumination

I think I am finally ready. Last night, I put your shirt, that I have held onto for years, into the charity basket. And then I cried. I realize it is time to let you go completely. I’ve held onto you for far to long. You were never really mine nor will you ever be.
That’s okay
That’s alright
I think I am finally ready. Saturday, I took a bath and read W.B Yeats. I did not feel this the need to go out. To escape, to obliviate myself. So, I enjoyed my bath soaking up Yeats’ words like a newborn at her mother’s breast.
I’ve decided to get rid of things in my life that don’t suit me, be it clothes, or crafts, or ideas. So many things I tried to be for other people. I may not yet know who I am, but I know who I am not. Yes, it will always be difficult to walk on the edge as I do, but I can’t deny that is where I belong. I belong to the heavens and the sea at the edge of twilight, dancing and flowing into the unknown.

The picture above was taken by my son and is one of my favorites. He has such an eye for beauty. One of the many reasons I love him `;~)

A New Seed Sprouts

I’ve come to realize so many things and had so many thoughts thundering like stampeding butterflies through my mind that I don’t know where to begin. So this may be more rambly than usual.

This is the year where I take care of me, this shall henceforth be known as The Year of Illumination . Last year was the Year of Sorrow. As of today, it has completed it’s cycle. I shall mourn no more for what was. And it is fitting that today, I cried out for all that I’ve lost, all that was, and all that could have been. But ya know, I’m better for having been through it. I do believe that. Gods, I wish it hadn’t happened, but it did so eventually you have to pick yourself up. Yeah, it’s taken me a good year, but I’m coming around.

So this year, I am taking care of what I need. I see a three year plan forming in my head `;~) Maybe it will even happen! hahaha! wouldn’t that be fragglicious! So today, while asstard was getting sentenced to 9 years, I went to the doctor’s and focused on me and mine. ARG and I both had new patient appointments and I am VERY pleased with the new doctor. She listened to us, I never felt rushed, and did not prescribe any meds. She wants to get bloodwork and see what is going on there and make sure there aren’t problems that account for the symptoms/problems.

The biggest part for ARG was to see about getting him some meds. He just isn’t where he needs to be yet. His depression is better, yet it is deeper. If that makes any sense? The talk therapy alone doesn’t seem to be cutting it. So we talked about his depression, his ADHD, his weight and height. I’m so proud that he is 5’6″ and 111 lbs!! This may not seem like much to you, but up until about 3 years ago, he was below 5′ and under 70 lbs…

I have to say, she really really listened to me! I always feel like the doctor’s think I’m full of it when I complain about how much pain I am in at times. She thinks that I have rheumatoid arthritis and I have a long list of bloodwork to get done this weekend!