Here it Comes, Another Dawning of You

Well, my crafting bug has been biting hard for the last couple of days as I’ve found some wonderful blogs on jewlery making, beading, sewing, and more! 

Some of my favorite things I’ve found today? This skull cameo fabric and this boar’s head fabric at spoonflower.com. A hipster shopgirl apron pattern at burdastyle.com and a 6 gored skirt. Spoonflower.com looks amazing and I have some ideas I want to try out for fabrics! Maybe some coven or sigil specific designs.

The BIGGEST <<and I do mean biggest>> Bead give-a-way ever is happening over at Denise Yezback Moore’s blog. A total of 7.5 lb’s of beads!!! And I’m enjoying all the Bead Soup Party folks designs! I’m thinking about getting in on it next time, it looks like way too much fun!

Also, this weekend is my coven’s Litha which I will be hosting. It’s exciting to have my covener’s over and to share my hearth. I’ve been enjoying leading the ritual writing committee and all of the excitement and energy that we pour into what we are doing. Sometimes, when I get down and don’t want to do my work, all I have to do is think about the dedication of my fellow covener’s. When I get ranty, I call my sounding board and I’m done and over it. I hope she knows how much of a blessing she is.

It seems this week has been focused on Meditation and keeping up on your practices in the blogsphere. Everywhere I turn,  there were posts on meditation. Miss Sugar over at  Charmed I’m Sure She brought up several good points. They have been rattling around in my head for a few days. Firstly, meditation may not be for everyone, but there are things that one can do to clear one’s mind and gain focus. I’m going to look deeper into the Japa practice that she mentions as it seems I kind of already do it `;~)

For I’m always chanting and singing ‘Song to the Secret Name of the Star Goddess’ that I posted about here. Nothing moves me like that song does `;~) It sets me at peace almost instantly and I am as content at as a purring cat.  As to the rest of my daily practice? eh…. I dont really follow a routine practice and it has quickly been becoming a focal point that I need to change that.

The cornerstone of my practice has been that I get to see the moon every night as I’m leaving work. She and I commune for a few minutes and then I head home. So in some ways, I am very connected though, I no longer feel that it is enough.

Miss Sugar also talked about what one is looking to accomplish with their magic. Ya know, I’ve never really thought about it like that. I’m also fairly sure that there are plenty of others who haven’t either. I’ve never really *used*  magic to accomplish goals. Except for one instance where my life and my children’s lives were threatened. And no, we didn’t engage in a ‘magical battle,’ with the help of my HP and his partner, another HP, we called magic to persuade the abuser to turn themselves into the police. The results were not as we expected, but he was quickly caught.

Anyway, this post is not about that `;~)  So where was I? hmm, yes, practice and goals. So just what do I want to accomplish? What are my goals?

A strong foundation
I want to build a foundation to keep me up when I falter, as I have almost no Earth in my natal chart, and I tend to be very flighty… The only birt of Earth in my chart is my rising sign, Virgo. This has been acerbated by not having a foundation in my formative years. I moved an average of every three years until I was 23. Roots? What Roots???

Focus Control and Follow-through
I taught myself not to have goals or expect anything because everything was always pulled out from under me when we moved unexpectedly. So while the upside to this was that I was very good at living in the now, I didn’t know how to prepare for the future. I still don’t 😦 Growing up, I never thought about those things as the future was infinitely untangibly beyond my control.

Ahh, control… Why do I let you slip through my fingers, why do I give you away as if you were a bad penny? This is the truth of it. I give you away or I simply refuse to take up your reigns. Honestly, I severely dislike being in control. Why, you ask? Because there is no one else to blame if I am in control.

Oh, yes, I am brutally honest with myself most of the time. *snort*

And follow through? psshshshshsht! Seriously? I have to much fire and air for my ideas to be grounded or manifested at times. I’d rather be the architect and let someone else build it`;~) Once something is no longer a challenge, forget it – I’m not interested. Think outside the box? oh hell yeah… What’s a box, btw?

Honestly, the only time I really complete things is when I am facing near anihilation by deadline `;~) Like, I’m having upto 20 people at my house on Saturday and I still  haven’t mowed, weed eated, or cleaned my house… Though my neighbor is supposed to mow and I have to borrow the weedeater from another neighbor… Nor have I made my dress or my special item for the ritual… And I’ve changed my special item like 3 times now…

So gues what my to-do list is like for tonight… hahahahah!!!!

So just what are my goals?
I want to be able to pay all my bills, including enough to afford a newer car. I want to be able to buy that dress or go to that workshop. I dno’t want to have to know Peter and Paul… I want to be able to create beautiful things. I want to  be of service to my community. I want to achieve my calling.

So know that I know what I want to accomplish and my goals. I just have to figure out how to get there. But I think the figuring it out part is how you get there `;~)

Blessed be my lovelies!

peacock eyes!

My cube feels so much better now. After our last cube reorganization, I had misplaced my peacock feather, prayer, and Brigid poster that I kept on my wall. Today, I found them and put them back up. Everything feels so much better, it is like a soft breeze!

Whew!

Redesigned my blog and just testing to see if my page is looking right? Does the font look the same on your screen as in the snapshot? Or does the page look crazy wacked out size wise?

Life is throwing some major curve balls and I’m striking out more often than I like, but it’s all good! While I would indeed like to throw in the towel and just run away, but I couldn’t do that!

My son is supposed to come stay the summer with me, so I’ve been trying to get my ‘craft room’ cleaned up. It ended up being a dumping ground for everything I didn’t want to deal with 😦 But now, I have gotten rid of lots of boxes and junk. I’ve still got about 10 boxes to go through, but for now, I think it is fine. Only wish I had more bookcases! I have sooooo many books that I’d like to have easy access too 😦

I’ve been busy planning Litha and I think it is going to be a really good ritual! I’m so excited, this will be the first coven ritual held at my house. It is nice to see folks traveling to me instead of me always traveling north!

My baby girl graduated from 8th grade yesterday!!! She is totally awesome and I love her dearly. I can’t believe she is growing up so fast! I remember her as a little baby and could just hold her and she would play with my hair.

She is growing up fast, but she is the best girl I know and I couldn’t be prouder of her!

Clothes for sale….

So, to make room in my life for new things, I”m getting rid of things I”m not wearing and thought I’d pass them along to ya’ll `;~) All prices are negotiable `;~)

28″ waist, 100% Silk UNDERBUST Corset by Lace. Worn 3 times in almost new condition. Asking $70 plus shipping (paid $150). See following pictures for closeup details.
Size 16 New York and Company pleated skirt. Excellent condition. Asking $25 plus shipping
Size ‘L’ Trip black mini-skirt with Teal Tulle Accent. Asking $15 plus shipping
Size 12P medium weight denim full skirt by New York and Company. Excellent condition. Asking $25 plus shipping.
size 10. good condition- some slight pilling. asking $25 plus shipping